Nerves …

Gosh I’m nervous about this interview, not about the interview itself, I interview well, but what I’ll do if they offer me the job and what I’ll do if I don’t get the job.  Not getting the job at the local law firm upset me for quite a while.  Apparently they are going to make a decision by this Sunday so at least I won’t be hung out over a month waiting to hear like I was with the last job.

I’ve been a paralegal for over 25 years now.  It’s what I do … but I have reinvented myself over the past year and now consider myself a farmer.  Can I be both?  Maybe.  Wally being here helps tremendously.  Can I tell you how wonderful it is to have a friend like Wally?  Someone who doesn’t judge you, who has the same goals and desires, who is as willing to roll up his sleeves and dig in and get the chores done as I am?  He knows that if (really when) I go back to work that things will change drastically.  Hopefully not too drastically.

I wish I could stay unemployed and continue being a farmer, but unfortunately, I cannot afford to keep living on a third of my salary and of course unemployment will run out.  All of the bills are not getting paid.  Maybe when all of the bills are paid I can go back to being a full-time farmer?

Things went okay last night with the two LGDs.  There wasn’t too much barking.  I heard the coyotes howling again.  Although I feel sure they are quite safe behind the ElectroNet with a LGD, it was nice to know the sheep were up here and completely safe.  I worry about the cats too, and Petunia (although she’s probably safe behind cattle panel and if anything were to go after her, we’d hear it loud and clear).

I worry too much.

The goats are lined up at the gate.  I had better get out there and milk them, then I’ll have to dig out the zoot suit and I guess I’ll have to take a shower …

Until later …