I need to cry more …

Crying is a great release.  I love my friend’s Shaping Chaos Blog.  I’m glad she’s keeping it up.  Correct me if I’m wrong, H., but I believe Shaping Chaos was started as means for the two of us to keep up on training notes.  I almost ruined my friendship with H. because of my stupidity and I’m glad that we were able to work through it.  When I turned off my unlimited long distance and Canada calling I felt like I was loosing something very important: my calls to H.  While we converse almost every day via e-mail, I treasure our telephone calls.  She helps to keep me straight.  I’m glad I started to use Skype because now we can talk.  I can’t believe I had been paying over $30 a month to AT&T for long distance calling when I can get it for less than $3 a month through Skype.

As I’m writing this, I’m crying after reading H’s post on Signs.  So many people go through their lives without seeing the simple beauty that is all around us.  Her photographs of her dogs playing in the snow are beautiful.  Thanks for the kick in the butt for me to get out and take photos.  You know what one of the reasons why I love Border Collies so much?  Because they are so damned beautiful doing what the do, be it working or playing.  They are such amazing dogs.

Again, all three of my dogs are here in my office with me.  Just waiting … the minute I get up, they’ll be on their feet ready to go … they don’t care where we go, they just want to go.  Yesterday when I did my errands I took Gel with me.  He stood in the back of my car softly howling.  He howls when he’s happy.  Gel didn’t care where we were going: he was just happy that we were going.

If Wally gets out of work at 2:00 today as he’s supposed to, I asked him if he’d videotape Cian working.  Yes, Cian is a real dog even though I haven’t posted a picture or video of him yet.  What if I died tomorrow?  I’d have wasted so much by not getting out and doing …

Rain was very compliant being milked this morning.  She still has the sores on her udder, but they do not seem to be so uncomfortable.  She didn’t kick at all.  That makes milking so much more pleasant.  I’m going out on Saturday to look at a second La Mancha doe who is in milk.  Obie, the Oberhasli buck that I bought a month or so ago is going to be sold tonight.  Hopefully he’ll bring at least $50 and I have $50 that was paid to me as a consultation fee.  That will pay for the goat.  Rain isn’t giving me quite enough milk to make cheese.  These high quality milk goats (both Rain and the other goat are registered) are essentially money in the bank.  I can always re-sell them for what I paid for them or more if I have to.  Meanwhile, I haven’t bought milk or bread in several weeks.  I was paying over $3 for a half gallon of organic milk and a good loaf of bread is about $3.