Changes …

I am procrastinating terribly about going out to milk.  We’ve had many days of 90+ degree heat and it is getting me down. My inability to find a suitable job is getting me down. It’s frustrating. I worry excessively about everything, money, the heat causing things to break, the milk refrigerator and freezers working extra hard in this heat, etc., etc., etc. It is prematurely aging me, but I cannot stop it. I wish I could learn to live in the moment.  I know I’d be a lot happier.

Yesterday, I went to CVCC to meet with the Dean of the Business Department. This was two-fold: I plan to finish a degree in business (I only need about six courses to do so) and he knows a lot of people so maybe through networking he can find something for me. I also went to the financial aid department and applied for work study.  It won’t pay much, but it will be regular weekly hours, no nights or weekends.

You see, Wally and I value our time together. If we are both off work, or I should say, if Wally is off work, we are together. We do everything together. We want to be together. That is a blessing.  Wally is a blessing.

Made some major changes with the rabbits.  If you’ve been reading this journal, you’ll know that I use the rabbit manure/straw mixture that the rabbits make in their pens to fill raised beds and to put between the rows of our regular garden.  Well, I’ve noticed that this mixture grows boatloads of grain and sunflowers.  I’ve got volunteer sunflowers EVERYWHERE. That is not a bad thing for the garden, but it is a bad thing when we are paying over $17 for a 50 pound bag of mixed grains that the rabbits are wasting. No wonder it takes them five to six months to grow out, they are not eating all of their grain and just living on hay and whatever else I bring them. Wasting food and a five to six month grow-out period is unacceptable so I put them back on conventional rabbit pellets. They are not getting much of it, just two cups of pellets every other day for a pen of rabbits, but they eat it all and whatever they may waste is not going to sprout.  I cannot even harvest these beautiful greens because no one will eat them — too much rabbit manure mixed in. So it becomes mulch: expensive mulch. I expect now that they are eating their food, they will grow out better.  We will see. I have also pared down the population to approximately 10 does and two bucks. Seven more raised beds will be added to the garden for crop production. No sense letting them go to waste.

I was talking to a fellow farmer yesterday and he commented on how domesticated animals have become so far removed from their natural counterparts — the livestock that our not-so-distant ancestors raised on whole grains and scraps that you about cannot raise them in a manner other than the conventional way now.  He also said that it was a good thing that we still have factory farms – otherwise we’d all starve.  I do not know how true that is, but it is something to think about and evidence of the very sad state of our food supply.

Wally and I came across a deal we could not refuse on two Saanen does. They are really nice, both in temperament and production. They even eat grass — something the lazy, ill-mannered Alpines are somewhat reluctant to do. It’s hot though and everyone is cranky.

Best go milk and try to get a few things done before it gets too hot.

Almost everything will work again if you unplug it for a few minutes … including you.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Anne Lamott

Until later …